The One Dealing A Pisces

Aaj ek aarse ke bad kuch likhne ko man kiya hai, aaj ek aarse bad mujhe ye jane kya hua hai? Aaj dil ki bat dil me rakhne me nakam raha hu, aaj main firse har chuka hu..! Q har bar galti meri hi shabit hoti hai? Q har bar mujhe, mujhse shikayat hoti hai? Q har bar sab mujhse pehle, aur main hi bad me aata hu? Q har bar khud se wada karke, main mukar jata hu? Qa kusoor hai mera? Qa hai meri khata? Ae rab mere, mujhe aaj ye bata. Main q apan dard bayan nhi kar sakta? Main q dil-e-haal bata nhi sakta? Q sab mujhse hi chahate ki main har bat samjh jau? Q main hi khud ko har bar manau? Q koi waha hota nhi mere sath jab main ruth jau? Har bar galti halat ki nhi hoti, ye bat samjhana bhi koi badi bat nhi hoti. Chal mana ki is bar bhi galti meri hai, par qa sirf meri hi hai? Isi sawal main mene aaj fir khud ko khoya hai, Shayad Aaj Dil Roya Hai..!

It happens many a time when we sit alone, we think of the dreams that we have seen in our childhood, many dreams that we forgive for our parents, family and society, and there are some dreams that we achieved, i cleared TES(Technical entry schmes, INDIAN NAVY) but due to parental pressure i didn't joined the call, but also there are many dreams that i have achieved in my life, MULAKAT is the meet of those dreams of past and and our present selves ,as  its necessary that whatever we do today our past selves should be proud of us, i hope mine is, what about you?  Aaj ek aarse bad khud se bat ho gai, Kahi bhul sa gaya tha jis saksh ko, Usse mulakat ho gai. Aaj najane barso bad, Kaise us masumiyat ne mera pata dundh liya, Kaise mere sare sapne vado ko, Mujhme jinda kiya. Ke mano mere bachpan ki har ek shararat, Mere samne ji uthi thi, Us mulakat ke pal me, Mere chahere pe sirkf khushi thi. Aaj ek aarse bad khud se bat hui thi, Kahi bhul gaya tha...

Wo meri hai, wo meri hi rahegi, Wo khuli ek hui kitab hai, par ek paheli rehgi, Wo ek aisi paheli hai jise sirf main suljha pata hu, Quki apne dil ka haal to wo kisi se nhi kahegi, Wo meri hai, wo meri hi rahegi. Wo upar se jitni sakht hai, andar se utni hi masoom hai, Wo meri daudti jindagi me, tehara hua sukoon hai, Wo pyaar hai mera, Wo hi mera junoon hai, Har ek khushi, har ek gam wo mere sath sahegi, Wo meri hai, wo meri hi rahegi. Wo meri baho me khud ko bhula deti hai, Wo mujhe muskura ke jeene ki wajah deti hai, Wo mujhe mujh se jyada chahati hai, Aur uske pyar ki barish yuhi mujhpe bahegi, Wo meri hai, wo meri hi rahegi. Wo khud ko mujhme basaya karti hai, Wo meri tasveero ko dekh, muskuraya karti hai, Wo meri galtiyo pe mujhe dat lagaya karti hai, Wo aksar meri ankho me dekh sharmaya karti hai, Wo mere labho ki chupi ko padh jaya karti hai, Wo mere ankahi si bato ko samaj jaya karti hai. Uske baare me kahne ko to bahut ku...

Uski masumiyat me kho jata hu, Har pal uska ho jata hu, Hasta hu kabhi, to kabhi ro jata hu. Wo ek chote bache ki tarh nadan hai,  Wo masumiyat ki masoom si misal hai. Jab koi mujhse puchta hai ki kon hai wo,  Asa usme kya khas hai? Has deta hu unke sawal pe, aur unse bas yahi kahta hu, Ki, Wo khaab hai, wo nayab hai Wo masoom si ek awaj hai, Wo kal thi meri, wo meri aaj hai,  Wo ek pyara sa ehsaas hai, Wo dur hai, wo mere pass hai,  Wo thi ajnabi, aaj khas hai. Wo bebak hai, wo anjan hai Wo meri, pehchan hai, Wo shuruat hai, wo anjam hai Mere to naam me, uska nam hai, Wo masoom si ek awaaj hai, Wo kal thi meri, wo meri aaj hai. Wo dhadkan meri, wo mera sanjh hai,  Wo din hai mera, wo meri rat hai, Wo dhoop hai sardi ki, wo garmi ki sham hai, Wo hai to khas hu m, uske bina aam hu m, Wo masoom si ek awaj hai, Wo kal thi meri, wo meri aaj hai. Wo meri sabse kimti jageer, wo mere hatho ki lakee...

Ek sawal mere dil-o-dimag me bar bar aa raha hai, Na chahate hue bhi us sawal ke taraf najane q ja raha hu, Har thodi der main khud se hi kah ja rha hu, Kya kahna jaroori tha? Kya kahna jaroori tha, kya main kal chup nhi rah skta tha, q kha main? q bole bina nhi raha m? Mujhe pata tha ki itni dur hai wo ki main apni bat nhi smjha paunga, Shabdo se khud ko bayan nhi kar paunga, Use samjha ne ke liye meri awaj jaroori thi, Par kal kar na sake, kuch aisi hi majboori thi. Pata tha mene bat galt shuru kar di, wsa kuch nhi tha, Kya mera kahna jaroori tha? Humre sath pe vishwas tha, ki galat nhi smjhnge hum ek dusre ki bato ko, Dono hi smjhnge ek dusre ke halato ko, par kal pehli bar harne ka ehsaas hua, ki use apne dil ki bat smjhane me main nakam hua, Socha tha smjh legi wo ki q bola mene kya mera matlb tha, Par galt smjh ke usne bola wo jiska na koi taluk tha. Par abhi bhi hua nhi kuch kharab, ase najane kitne hi halato ko humne par kia hai, Kuch asa hi safar humne sath...

To all those lovers who find each other in the chilhoood..! BACHPAN WALA PYAAR kitna masoom hota hai, kya wo pyaar bhi hota hai? Aisa hum ab jaroor socha karte hai ki, kya wo majah ek attraction hi tha, ya ho sakta hai infatuation ho, par us time hum itna kaha sochte the, hum to bebak un raho pe nikal pade the, manjil pata nhi thi ki kaha hai, par raste khoobsurat lag rahe the, tabhi to kahte hai ki bachpan wala pyaar bada masoom hota. Kaise hume bas har ek pal me wohi dikhai dene laga tha, school ke lectures me dhayan khone sa laga tha, kaise use din me ek bar dekhne ke liye betab rehte the, kaise use bina soche har bat khte the, ek din bhi bat na ho dhang se to blank messages bejh ke apna gussa dikha dete the, ha dosto ye bachpan whatsapp se phele ka hai, jab hum apni dp nhi hata skte the, apni sadness kisi ko nahi dikha sakte the, ek s ko type karne ke liye keypad ko char bar dabate the, aur uske messages padh ke, muskurate the. Ghanto baatein karke bhi lagta tha ki, are abh...